you know that exilerating feeling you got when you were a kid when you were home alone? i can turn the music up as loud as i want!! i can eat the whole bad of oreos if i want!! i can watch whatever i want on television! i'm tapping into my childhood and experiencing this priceless feeling as i type.

sometime in the next 20 years, i want to go to maine in the fall. i want to sit on the rocky beach and watch the waves roll in, calmly. i want to be alone. i want to wear saturday jeans and an oversized whool sweater. i want to be barefoot. i want to reflect on my life and the things i have learned. i want the moment to be so perfect that i tear up.

i like to add milk to my cherry vanilla diet dr. pepper.

and i read my bible last night and talked to the Lord, and today is already feeling more right and i feel really relieved. for the past couple of weeks or so, i have felt this heavy burden on my chest, only weighing me down. but i have a new perspective on many of the issues i was dealing with and now it feels as if i can "see the light", as cheesy and pathetic as that sounds.

oh sunny, sunny days...